I am not happy. I don’t like my job, I don’t like what I am in school for, I don’t like that I am alone, I don’t like that my dog is dying, I don’t like that I can’t seem to eat right, I don’t like that boys still play games at 25, I don’t like that i am unhappy with so much in my life.
Thats the mood I was in, and then I went to a class at my new cross fit gym and three things happened that made me see some happiness in my life:
1) Someone mistook me for the trainer
2) A woman said all she wanted in life was to have arms and shoulder like me
3) Another lady said I had no buisness being there because I have an amazing body to which I said, I am here because I want to lose 20 pounds, but thanks.
I enjoy workouts and pushing my body but thats the only thing that makes me happy right now. I need to find more happiness in my life, I just don’t know how…and that makes me unhappy :(
Throw the rules out the window and tell me whatever you feel.
Can you feel the magic in the air? It must have been the way you kissed me.
Had a wonderful night last night, but trying not to have any expectations because I do not want to be disappointed.
Went kayaking this morning for four hours…was super nervous but ended up loving it (minus the bugs). I am so relexed and at peace right now.
needs something good to finally happen…im done with the bad, the sad, the upsetting, and the let downs…stay away, only good allowed. I need the good, I have had enough of the bad and the ugly.
I hope the sun shines and its a beautiful day and something reminds you you wish you had stayed. You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind.
I’ve workout pretty good this week, officially in Marathon Training. I have SheRox Tri tomorrow which will be a BREEZE after the Olympic Tri two weeks ago…I just REALLY REALLY DON’T WANT TO SWIM IN THE SCHYKIUL river (don’t know if I spelled that right). But I know if I push myself and race well that I can place in my age group. This is the first time I am competing in the 25-29 age group…yuck I am old!
Also, I am registered for a Paleo Seminar in the fall that I am really excited about and I am really considering taking the MCATs and applying to Medical School…something I gave up when I got sick but I have come so far from the days of being confined to a wheel chair, why not go for everything that I had wanted…expect I will be like 30 when I am done but at this rate I have nothing to lose….expect precious training time :)
Been busy working a lot and resting from some bad sushi that made my tummy not very happy for almost 48 hours….I am officially in MARATHON TRAINING. Holy shit, that’s the first step though. Trying to get refocused on my diet, someone suggested doing a 21 day NO SUGAR (at all) fast/detox…not sure how I feel about this, I am more of a balanced diet with limited processed food but I am not sure. I was doing great…until my birthday and the day after and the day after.
Started my birthday off with boot camp at 8 this morning!
